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Cardinals in Flight
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« on: February 09, 2012, 01:39:28 PM »

I'm really struggling today, I need to contact my XBPDg/f, yes need, so I know it's part of the 'addiction' thing.  I miss her terribly, my life is falling apart, as if it wasn't bad enough that she dumped me just last week.

Nothing is right in my world, my chest aches, sometimes I can hardly breathe.

I'm staying strong, but it surely does blow chunks, and I despise myself for being so damn needy right now, I also recognize this behavior in myself was a trigger for her.  She loved it in the beginning and was my hero, I pushed her away  and hurt her with my neediness. cry cry
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« Reply #1 on: February 09, 2012, 02:34:35 PM »

 

 

Be kind to yourself

I felt all those things, still do sometimes.

I decided it is just plain heartbreak and withdrawl.

Going back to the source will not help

I had a sign on my phone and computer that read : "dont pet the burning dog" to keep me from calling.

This was a rough week and weekend for me too!

Turn that love on yourself,

talk to us.

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« Reply #2 on: February 09, 2012, 02:52:26 PM »

I too am having a really really hard day... tears right about to break... painful painful thing... let's hang in there together... don't give yourself over to it.. you are worth WAY more than more abuse...!
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« Reply #3 on: February 09, 2012, 03:14:38 PM »

it's a full moon for sure.  NR... you can do it.  Keep posting here if you have to.  What are you doing to pass the time?  For me it's been a full day.  Appointment at 7:30, Then A/C yearly service at 10:00, then to the carpet place to get new carpet, then look at a trailer for my jet ski, and got to work.  Been working away and taking some time to chit chat.  I solved a problem that I was struggling with yesterday but started back fresh today and got it done.  All that has helped me keep my mind of problems.  I am dealing with my personal problems just not during the day.  Compartmentalizing. 

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« Reply #4 on: February 09, 2012, 09:30:31 PM »

I had an excellent appointment with my T this evening, she is VERY adept at treating BPD.

I came home and contacted XBPDgf and I'm very happy that I did, if she got a power trip out of it, so be it, I FEEL BETTER, and right now that's all that matters.  We talked calmly for over an hour, she loves me the best way she can, but doesn't want to be in a r/s, I respect that and it's better than thinking she hated me.  WE both apologized for nasty happenings last weekend, and she wants me in her life, but I told her I needed to breathe apart from her for a while before we revisit seeing one  another in whatever capacity we feel comfortable in.

I have a feeling the more I back up, go out etc, the better we will be able to relate to one another, and if she goes dark again? I can deal with it, because she is no longer my SO.  I am free to go and do as I please.

I appreciate all of the feedback I've received, it's helped me tremendously during the past 8 weeks.
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« Reply #5 on: February 09, 2012, 09:58:27 PM »

I had an excellent appointment with my T this evening, she is VERY adept at treating BPD.

I came home and contacted XBPDgf and I'm very happy that I did, if she got a power trip out of it, so be it, I FEEL BETTER, and right now that's all that matters.  We talked calmly for over an hour, she loves me the best way she can, but doesn't want to be in a r/s, I respect that and it's better than thinking she hated me.  WE both apologized for nasty happenings last weekend, and she wants me in her life, but I told her I needed to breathe apart from her for a while before we revisit seeing one  another in whatever capacity we feel comfortable in.

I have a feeling the more I back up, go out etc, the better we will be able to relate to one another, and if she goes dark again? I can deal with it, because she is no longer my SO.  I am free to go and do as I please.

I appreciate all of the feedback I've received, it's helped me tremendously during the past 8 weeks.

my .02 is as you have moved on and are doing your own things you will flourish and you won't so much care about your relationship with her.  You'll still wish her well but your emotions won't be all twisted up like they are post breakup. 
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