Gosh it has been so long since I have been on the board. I have read a few entries and my heart still breaks for all of you. Sadly it has been nearly 10 months since Tegan took her life. But time is nothing, the illness took away so much more even before she died. It has left me feeling guilty everyday (everyday I struggle with what BPD did to us all). I try and think of the beautiful girl with the wicked humour and when she was the nice Tegan. Not the BPD
. But damned if you do and damned if you don't. This illness is like having a terminal illness. Your dying, because BPD is killing you. Your an emotional wreck all the while trying to keep your sanity and not be sucked into the BPD world of complete turmoil and madness. And for our children it is a dangerous illness because they take extreme risks and are so wreck-less to themselves. I miss my beautiful daughter "Tegan" not her tortuous illness. I hope and pray one day soon a drug will be invented to help them. And bring back our stolen children. The beautiful children that BPD stole.
I just wanted to say "Hi" and I pray for all of you. Also "Hi" and luv to Angela I hope your doing well.
Take care everyone, be strong
Peppie xxx
