Cant she just mail these items? I wouldnt want her near my apt/home. You are doing great with NC really you are.
She does cause panic in me and trigger anxieties. I never feel like I'm prepared.
My BPDexgf and I live in neighboring towns. I can't go to her town without feeling bad. I have a friend that I've known for 20 years, and he had a little party to celebrate our professional/personal relationship. I was in tears driving there. I sat in the car for 20 minutes composing myself before I could go to the "party", and it's been, I don't know, 4 months since I saw my ex, longer since we were together. I suppose saying this isn't a great deal of help, but I do know the idea of panic and anxiety. It's terrible. Just terrible.