As you are aware i went on a nice walk and somewhat of a date.I followed up on some phone calls and went to her place this week..I feel like after 44 years of never running,i finally did it..I finally stopped and did not ''keep going'' due to my own lonliness and fear of being alone.
I hate to say this and i hate to do this.But last night i told her i would love to be ''just friends''..
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On the outside she is beautiful.She has a great job.She is very attractive.She owns her home and has an independent life.But that is the ''outside stuff''...So with further conversations with her this week,i have seen some serious |>..She is emotionally allready playing this push pull crap with me.She draws me in and sets me up and then BANG,she says terrible things to push me away.I felt like the come close go away BS dance.
Well Homie aint having that DANCE.Been there all my life since my DAD and i am DONE with that B/S.
She has done this on every phone call and the couple times i stopped to see her.I did not get into no fight or even bring this up.I just watched how she was toying with me ''emotionally''.So i was a gentleman about it and last night i told her i wanna be ''just friends''.Well she got pissed and pretty much we said goodbye on the phone.
So i am PROUD of myself for the first time in my 44 years,that I AM READING THE FLAGS..I just hope i read this one right.I am not persuing this on an Intimate level.Besides i am still in pain from last one.
