I'm not sure why I come back, but reading posts here leaves me feeling a lot of pain and wanting to cry. I'm not sure if it's because I have so much unresolved pain from the past couple of weekends with my uBPDbf or what.
I just read posts by people and it leaves me feeling hopeless.
I'm happy in my relationship right now. I mean there isn't a lot of conflict going on. Things are stable. But I think I've become worn out by everything that has happened. I just want to randomly cry. I keep reassuring my uBPDbf that I love him and want to stay with him, but at some point they feel like just words strung together without meaning.
I want to be with him RIGHT NOW. But I don't always see my future with him. My summary of our relationship is good, but those small moments of intense pain have worn away at my resilience.
Keep in mind that most post here only when they are doing it tough. If things are fine they dont post as much, if not at all. This can mean that what you are reading is a collection of "lowlights'