reoccuring dreams

[healinghome]

I've read (I think it was in 'understanding the borderline mother' that many sons and daughters of BPD parents dream about escaping from prison camps and such situations.  i personally have a reoccurring dream like this, but with healing it is becoming less.  i wondered if anyone else has reoccurring dreams related to the influence of those with BPD.

daisy4 

[claudiaduffy]

Yes, but mine almost always directly involve my uBPDm or uBPDmil in the dream itself. Not so abstract as a concentration camp.

Though, come to think of it, I had a dream a couple of months ago where I was being kidnapped and prepared to be tortured and executed by a cult, and the only way out was to take advantage of a moment when they weren't looking, and kill one of them with a club I'd found, so I could escape. It was brutally realistic (it took more than just a hit to the head to kill my capturer), and it was AWFUL. I dreamed it four times in a row before I woke up, and each time tried to find another way out, but couldn't. I wouldn't have even killed to get loose myself except I wasn't the only caught by them, and I needed to help get other innocent people and kids out.

I hadn't thought about that being related to getting free from the BPDs in my life - it just seemed like a crazy awful dream - but now you've got me thinking.

[healinghome]

Though, come to think of it, I had a dream a couple of months ago where I was being kidnapped and prepared to be tortured and executed by a cult, and the only way out was to take advantage of a moment when they weren't looking, and kill one of them with a club I'd found, so I could escape. It was brutally realistic (it took more than just a hit to the head to kill my capturer), and it was AWFUL. I dreamed it four times in a row before I woke up, and each time tried to find another way out, but couldn't. I wouldn't have even killed to get loose myself except I wasn't the only caught by them, and I needed to help get other innocent people and kids out.

wow... .that sounds intense.  the cult issue might be to do with the secrecy around the BPD?  like... .you and siblings know about it and the effects of it, but the rest of the world has no idea! 

[claudiaduffy]

Yeah, maybe. Also (since I think it was probably more to do with my uBPDmil than my uBPDm) it may have stemmed from her abuse of religion in her hatefulness toward us. My mother's Christianity makes her BPD less intense (surprisingly enough); my MIL's "Christianity" (I think it's an ingrained sham with her) is merely a weapon in the hands of her BPD.

But I don't want to derail your thread. You say your dreams are recurring - are they all more or less the same? Are you always powerless in them?

[healinghome]

well that makes sense... .the religion connection.  I didn't feel you were derailing my thread... .I'm here to share my experiences and learn from others too    

I used to be very powerless in my dreams.  I remember one I used to have was an enormous black dog-like animal was chasing me and I used to be able to only just out run it.  I'd run through houses and yards etc, slamming doors on it.  then one time I thought 'screw you!' and turned to face it.  it shrank very small and left and I never had the dream since.   the prison camp one is usually trying to escape via tunnels and stairs etc.  like trying to find my way out of an enormous gray derelict building/prison.

I haven't had it in a while and its definitely easing with healing.  I look forward to the day I have the prison dream and find my way out of it, just like the black dog dream