Well after being avoided except by text since our T on wednesday, just talked to her on phone. She seemed to be dysregulating and everything is my fault, cant see me because it is always an argument... .I think she is avoiding having to talk about T... .I dont think i can take it anymore! I love her and just wish I had known about BPD and these resources earlier. Ugh... .I cant even decide if im undecided or leaving.
Never felt pain like this.
I'm so sorry with the pain that you are experiencing. I've been there/am there and it is just awful. Hang in there. For BPD's it is always someone else's fault, it has to be in order for them to exist and protect themselves. It isn't personal. Please recite that to yourself a few times each time you have these strong feelings. We are all here for you.
bvom