The other major issue I have is trust... .I don't trust my partner to be honest with me.
CommittedToMyself,
Great post... .I can see how you are working through things... .which helps me provide advice.
I would encourage you to try this on for size.
You partner is being honest with you... ."in that moment"...
Even if later on you have a different point of view... .or if she does... please remember and be empathetic about someone that feels really intense emotions... .
Rather than figuring out if you believe your partner or not... .try to figure out where the baseline is... .the "mean" of the things that they are saying. Most likely that is where your version of "honesty" is at.
FF