Hello ittakes2 and welcome to BPD family.
There will be many if not all the members of this board who came here because they were wanting to improve their relationship with a pwBPD. You are in very good company.
We can help you with support, advice and guidance around the issues that arise out of loving someone with this illness.
I am going to include a link to some of the resources we have here that I find very helpful when I first came here,
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=56206. You can dip in and out of the information.
Can you tell us some more about you, your situation, does your spouse have a diagnosis of BPD? Who is there for support for you?