If I remove myself from the questions (leave the area) I am still the bad guy.
So you are no worse than if you stay
Now that I think about it she once said that I run away from conversations all the time and that's when I started to feel trapped.
It is your own feeling of guilt that keeps you trapped. She is putting that on you. Your guilt feeling comes from believing you dont have an answer.
I feel bad because I want to talk and resolve the situation but I also don't want to be trapped into a conversation that will do no good.
You can't, talk with not resolve anything, that is the trap, only decisive actions.
What you are doing is not working and nothing wil change unless you change what you do.
Your own sense of "fairness" is handicapping you in a contest with someone who has no sense of fairplay, only winning.