Hi barry.int
Welcome to the family, we are glad to have you here with us!
I'm sorry to learn that your own mental and emotional health are suffering because of your relationship with your fiancé. Learning to take care of ourselves is #1 here and we have lots of info in the Lessons to the right of the page to help you get started. Learning about your fiancé's disorder can help make some sense of her reactions and irrational behaviors (not that we agree with them, just that it makes sense in the context of her disorder). I'm glad that you are at least on a waiting list for counseling, most all of us here have participated in therapy... .we need all the help we can get.
You are amongst those who understand your struggles and can appreciate the difficulties that you are facing daily, hang in there... .it can get better!
Is your fiancé diagnosed and in therapy herself? Does she accept her diagnoses and actively apply what she is learning in her therapy sessions?
lbjnltx
ps, here is a link to the common abbreviations used on the site:
What do all these abbreviations and terms mean?