Hi somuch,
I'm glad you removed yourself from an unsafe situation. At the core of BPD is shame ("I'm a bad person". Do you feel he got angrier when you approached him talking about BPD?
Learning the communication tools is good, in order to reduce conflict and avoid triggers. The violence, however, he owns.
What are your feelings about reaching out to him, or if he reaches out to you?
Turkish
This was the first time I said anything about the BPD. I have been thinking it for a while. He knows what it is. I have hesitated to say anything because I knew it would upset him. But I finally got to the point that I would rather us end than him not face the reality. It upset him. Said he was really upset that I diagnosed him. I told him that I didn't care what he called it but he needed to get treatment. He offered to get help with distress tolerance but I worry that he is only doing it for me and not for himself, which won't work. I have thought about reaching out to him about 1000 times a day for the last 10 days but I'm so scared that I will just feed the cycle again.