I always feel like when I tell friends stories of some of the things that go on here that they must think I'm the crazy one. When you say it aloud it sounds ridiculous, like I'm leaving out some very important information, like I cheated on him or killed his puppy. you know?
Hi Daisydragonfly I do know... .
When I have told of a situation that has happened in my home, that I could actually admit to, the details would sound ludicrous to friends... .My good friends would say that I had to stop taking the nonsense and that it is emotional abuse or why didn't I leave already? And this with only minor details. For years I have been ashamed to elaborated on H's behavior because I still want to be in this relationship... .
For instance I shared a situation where I got the silent treatment for 3 days because one night H said I gave him a sh**y pillow out of the blue - I have no idea what set him off. My friends might laugh or say I should be thankful instead of worried, it's not like he's cheating on me? I too have been with my uBPDH for 20+ years (26!) and just finding out about this disorder in the past 2 months so have tried so hard to find reasonable excuses for H's behavior along the way... .
I reiterate that you are not alone. The lessons are taking a while to read but they are helping me take better care of myself. Hope you will continue venting and sharing we are here for each other!