So close to breaking

[Steve87xx]

Hey all. First post here and I have to say I'm at my wits end. I kinda ended up here after a year of trying to battle BPD with my partner for a year. A lots happened in that time. I have been cheated on dozens of times... .her daily threats of suicide fallowed by the weekly attempts... .in and out of inpatient... .er visits 3 times a week. Fights multiple times a day and being told how I'm all there is keeping her alive. The stress is killing me. Last night she slit her wrist in front of me... .the sound is still trapped in my head along with the image of her holding the same piece of glass to her neck looking at me... .I'm terrified to turn my back even for a mommebt... .I'm in pretty rough shape. All while battling the codependency she brought onto me during our first year dating. Please help me know I'm not alone. I won't myself survive hearing that sound of slit skin again.

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[an0ught]

Hi Steve,

dealing with multiple suicide attempts is horrifying . These are huge shocks while I had my share of threats and attempts seeing it up-close   - I can't really imagine it. Please be not afraid to reach out to all real life friends and family - you did not cause it and you have no obligation to keep the cover on it. I guess she is currently in-patient?

Hang in here  ,

a0

[Steve87xx]

Inpatient won't take her anymore because she starts dbt nextra Thursday which nor only means that I have another week of this but she says during dbt it's going to get even worse. And I'm already so exausted