Thanks everyone x
It's hard making changes to ourselves.
Habits are tough to break and so easy to slip back into.
I beleive that as long as we are moving forward and trying, that we are doing the right thing. We aren't going to be perfect, so we need to cut ourselves some slack and recognize what we did right, rather than focus on what we did wrong (which I finally did later on). You may fall into the pit for a bit, but getting yourself out quickly and shaking it off are what really counts...
Doing the right thing in the heat of the moment only happened cause I practice it during the easy times. It is the praciticing that allowed me to recognize early enough that I needed to take some time away for me.
As for the monthly's? I think part of it is age too... I always considered myself blessed, that I didn't suffer from all the nasty side effects that other women had to endure. No cramps, no bloating, no extreme moodiness. Now that middle age is creeping up (OK... it's already here), I find myself getting very tired during my period (nap every day for a week straight) and more emotional. I felt like crying cause I was losing a game I was playing for Heavens sake
Way out of control... ;p
Steph mentioned taking soy pills, which I was doing for a bit. They seemed to help with the hot flashes. I need to get back into taking my vitamins and exercising. More "shoulds" to add to my growing list ;p
foiles... say the word and we can hit the Cheese Factory again. That was fun last time
Maybe this time we can get Joanna (or any others in the area) to join us