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One day it will be calmer.
One day the the scramble of thoughts and fear and anger will subside.
One day one day will pass and actually never thought about it all.
Then it will become two days.
When we have time to think we can honestly to ourselves admit our weaknesses and faults as we all have them.
  Then we see how we spend so much more time actually agonizing and pleading and in the end it was to be the end.
  And then it’s calmer. 
  And we all gain another sense. And hopefully trust will return as it should because it’s vital. And it’s out there I’m sure.

...and the calm is a void, something nature abhors, for which, it will begin to fill..  Let it fill with good.  Good will be recognized, thus welcomed ~ as will we

Hang in there, Goosey. Thinking of you.

"Always remember that your present situation is not your final destination. The best is yet to come."

I permitted myself to make a small edit... we find what we seek - we accept what we feel we are worth.  Anyone who can express such a beautiful sentiment is worth the peace you seek.

Blessings to you my friend.

Rev

So here it is tonite. 
Out of the blue a email about a show on cable.
She actually is just reaching out.
...tempted... oh no way...
I spend everyday alone but in not alone. I work, associate with strangers and customers and loe and behold nobody punches me in the face. 

Thank you thank you for this site and all of you.
  I am stunned right now but not ignorant of the cycle.
  All good.

And thank you rev.
From all of us. 
I’ll respond somehow. I will always love her and care for her but on my terms.
I’m granite now. Seen it all.