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Title: one month out Post by: mnwushu89 on February 06, 2013, 05:18:24 AM So today marks one month since the last time I had contact with my exBPDgf. Last time we spoke she raged at me like crazy like I never saw before and it was the moment of clarity I needed. What a month it has been though.
It is funny how life works out and though I still think about her and things pertaining to "us" from time to time my mind is not where it was a month ago. I have kept a regular fitness routine and more importantly started training in jiu jitsu and martial arts again like I was before the relationship going everyday and following my passion, i have even started assisting in teaching and coaching which has always been my dream. Most important I have started weekly therapy with a therapist dealing/specializing with relationships, personality disorders, and trauma. While we dealt with some of the relationship I realized that it was not about thev relationship or what happened to me but rather about me on why I would get involved or stay. It has always been about me and I'm you figuring out who that is for the first time I think. I'm not sure where this path will take me but I am finally enjoying the journey in the mean time. Thank you all Title: Re: one month out Post by: Rose Tiger on February 06, 2013, 10:03:10 AM You are doing great stuff to take care of yourself. Getting those endorphins going with exercise is spot on with counteracting sad feelings. Having a therapist to explore what makes you tick is good and it will help you learn how to avoid unsafe people in the future. |iiii I'm glad you are realizing your dream with the coaching, very cool!
Title: Re: one month out Post by: Apple white on February 06, 2013, 01:58:11 PM This is a very inspiring post for me. It is encouraging to hear how much better you feel after a month. I am taking up walking again and it is amazing how it helps with our moods and our thoughts. Thank you.
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