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I recognize that I just posted another topic... .  I hope it's not unacceptable for me to post two topics so near together. If so, please let me know what the rule is for this so I can abide! That said... .  

My DBF insists that I trigger him because I am subconsciously used to drama and feel more at ease when it's present because it's what I've been used to my whole life. I can't help but wonder if he is right, at least in part? Maybe that is why I put up with it, at the very least? I did grow up in a very dysfunctional household. My mom has DID (dissociative identity disorder) and had a stint with drug addiction, during which I lived with my grandmother and felt abandoned by both of my parents. I also witnessed my mom being domestically abused by more than one person, including my father and step-father. This is only a VERY brief summary of the drama and pain I endured (not because I'm not willing to share more, but to keep this as short as I can. Feel free to ask questions).

Does anyone else feel they might have an addiction to the emotional high of drama? I know that in my head it's not what I really want, but am I just programmed to create or perpetuate it, or is that just another hurtful thing he says to control me?

Posting multiple threads is fine, just not too many at once or you end up with responses getting crossed and duplicated

I am not addicted to drama but I expect for some that is normal. I am sure this can lead to deliberate subconscious triggering. If you grew up in a dysfunctional environment, then it probably would take a big dose of it for you to realize that what you are experiencing is not normal. By then you have enabled to such a large degree it is hard to undo.