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Title: nc - starting over after 48 hours Post by: just_think on February 14, 2013, 10:05:42 PM I peaked at her picture account. She had set it to private. My guess is because of the new guy but who knows really. that's why i was looking anyways. It's valentines day. Wanted to see who she jumped to.
Been in therapy. Talked about this. Emotional self harm. Not unlike someone who cuts themselves... . Made it 2 days. Was feeling better, seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. When I looked I got this wave of... . something. I'm not sure what it is. Not quite anxiety. I can feel it in my chest. I can't really pick up on what it is... . maybe shame? maybe anger? any thoughts, comments, relations so next time i get he urge, i can better fight it? maybe so i can better sort out what I'm feeling? Title: Re: nc - starting over after 48 hours Post by: recoil on February 14, 2013, 11:24:19 PM Deep breath through those feelings. Helps me quite a bit. Do it for a couple of minutes.
Title: Re: nc - starting over after 48 hours Post by: just_think on February 14, 2013, 11:36:03 PM Yup mindfulness got me through the day. And I picked up smoking again. My weekend starts tomorrow. I'm going to try to detox.
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