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Title: saying hello again Post by: dancinginthelight on March 19, 2013, 07:09:19 PM Hi everyone
Ive not posted for a while, although I do occassionally pop in here to read your posts and to see how you are getting on. On 19th Jan 2013, decided to have a break for 5 weeks from going online, could not even switch my computer on, was finding everything too painful to look at. I became addicted to various websites that my exbf uses and I needed to try and break the habits of reading his posts and finding how much he is enjoying his life with new partner. Also I had read something about him that confirmed my suspicions from last April. Felt deeply sad but in a way, relieved that I am not crazy and paranoid like he would say I was. Only wish Id listened to my intuition then maybe could have healed alot quicker... . hmmm... . dont know? Anyways, over the last 4 weeks I have a new Therapist and see her every week. She has diagnosed me with severe depression, of which I have been in constant denial. I have finally accepted now and am working with T CBT. Currently not on medication, but I will not rule it out if its needed. All I can do is one day at a time. Also I am managing to overcome ":)ental phobia" and undergoing extensive dental work for years of neglect on my teeth. I have signed up with The Open University to study Pyschology in June this year at the suggestion from my T. She thinks it will be good for me :) Title: Re: saying hello again Post by: arabella on March 22, 2013, 02:48:10 PM Hi there! Welcome back!
Did you find your time away from your computer to be helpful? It sounds like it was necessary and a healthy step in the right direction. It's also good to hear that you are in therapy. I think we often underestimate our own suffering - whether it be physical or mental. Years of trauma really can add up and mess with our heads! You sound like you're really moving forward with your life and starting to take care of yourself. Congratulations! (I'm a huge fan of continuing education so I think it's great you've found something to study!) |iiii Title: Re: saying hello again Post by: P.F.Change on March 22, 2013, 03:14:47 PM It sounds like you are taking some great steps to take care of yourself and meet your needs. |iiii Good for you!
I was in denial about my depression for a long time. I was only able to start healing when I was ready to acknowledge it and ask for help. I'm proud of you for doing what it takes. I can tell you are ready to improve your life and have he support in place to make that possible. Thanks for sharing! Wishing you peace, PF |