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I handed the direction of my life over to someone else. I gave him the steering wheel and allowed him to take my life in whatever direction he chose. It seemed safe, he told me I was safe with him, that he would love me and care for me. But he was a careless driver, taking far too many risks and putting me in difficult and dangerous positions. Yet, I let him drive. I can't deny the thrill that often came with the danger of the ride. And, I didn't have to do the work, I was just along for the ride. It was when he tried to drive my life over a cliff that I bailed. Finally, my self survival instinct took hold and I grabbed back the steering wheel. Now, this is the process of learning to drive again. To learn to drive safely, taking care about my life and being aware of the lives of others on the road. To enjoy the ride and appreciate the scenery as it unfolds. To have the wheel in my hands.

Learning to drive can be exhilarating and scary.  Lots to pay attention to.  It also can lead to freedom.  Love the analogy!

What do you see as the primary things that are most difficult for you right now and that you want to focus on? 

I'd say probably trust. I still trust too readily on a superficial level and not enough in deeper relationships. I am still holding off on a SO relationship although I keep peaking at that board here thinking I can't wait for my turn!

The other thing would be patience. I have seen a lot of growth in that area but being a naturally impatient person it can become tedious at times as I work through the various issues at what I consider a far too slow pace.

Lastly, trying to identify and deal with what is causing a low level of anxiety that has taken up residence within me.

Those are mine, makes me wonder what others identify as most difficult issues.

Oh one more, being brave enough to let "just me" be seen and not "I'll look after it me".