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Title: Getting grateful for my BPD Post by: fromheeltoheal on March 26, 2013, 12:15:19 PM Yes, she mirrored me, idolized, manipulated, devalued, and abused me, and treated me to her own special brand of continuous chaos. And I was totally naive and didn't know what was going on, only that it hurt like hell. Well, having given it some time and learned a lot about BPD traits here and elsewhere, I've learned it must be hell in her head, I hope she finds some lasting peace, and I'm getting grateful for the experience.
Why was I attracted to her in the first place? Why did I ignore a boatload of red flags? Why did I think an obsession that was abusive was 'love'? Why did I forge on trying to rescue and fix her? Why did I interpret a need to be needed as love? Lots of questions, lots of work, but thanks sweetheart, I've grown already, and am asking questions I might not have if you hadn't blown into and then out of my life. Work I wasn't expecting, with a hope that I will grow profoundly as I do it. Thanks sweetheart. Title: Re: Getting grateful for my BPD Post by: blecker on March 26, 2013, 01:16:48 PM Your attitude is wonderful.
With such perspective you can only benefit from any experience you incur. |