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Title: Feeling like I have completely had it... Post by: allibaba on April 29, 2013, 09:26:07 AM My undiagnosed BPD husband went to his first day of a new job this morning. He always stresses out about new jobs and the lead up has been bad. I am grateful that my father in law is visiting because it would have been far worse if he wasn't here.
Anyway... . mornings are bad and this morning was especially bad. My husband slept in because either he set his alarm clock wrong or our toddler reset it for him. Anyway, he woke up late and I had packed his lunch and I brought cereal in to him while he was getting ready. As he was leaving the house (ended up being on time, if not early) he said to his dad "Great I get to start a new job without any breakfast. Thank you to my stupid nightmare of a wife for making me late on my first day." I found it odd because I had clearly brought him breakfast. When I went into the bathroom I understood. He had taken the granola that I brought in and poured it in the bathroom sink clogging the drain. I had a half a mind to leave it there but I refuse to leave milk going bad in the sink all day -- so I didn't. His dad said that his son (my husband) has gotten so miserable that he wouldn't blame me if I left him. I am just so sad and tired this morning. I want one morning where he doesn't wake up in terrors. I have to set some sort of boundaries around the morning craziness. Its really starting to wear on me and our little boy. |