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Title: I can feel normal this week... Post by: Take2 on April 30, 2013, 08:14:08 PM So my on/off again uBPD-exbf is on vacation this week from work... . and finally, I can breathe at work. I can TALK to people at work, I can LAUGH at work... . I can WORK at work... . and I can be ME at work... . I haven't felt this relaxed at work in a couple years... . It's HUUUGE for me... . I wonder if my peers notice any difference... . (probably a ridiculous thought as I imagine it's obvious)... . I know I can do this... . I still care NO doubt about that... . but it's so nice to have time for ME at work... . just wanted to share... .
Title: Re: I can feel normal this week... Post by: seeking balance on April 30, 2013, 09:20:43 PM So my on/off again uBPD-exbf is on vacation this week from work... . and finally, I can breathe at work. I can TALK to people at work, I can LAUGH at work... . I can WORK at work... . and I can be ME at work... . I haven't felt this relaxed at work in a couple years... . It's HUUUGE for me... . I wonder if my peers notice any difference... . (probably a ridiculous thought as I imagine it's obvious)... . I know I can do this... . I still care NO doubt about that... . but it's so nice to have time for ME at work... . just wanted to share... . That is great - it is nice to have freedom to be ourselves. Title: Re: I can feel normal this week... Post by: Grey Kitty on May 03, 2013, 09:07:05 PM Just noticed this... . at the end of the week. Now I'm wondering for you:
Can you keep this attitude at work next week even though he is back? It all came from inside YOU, so it will still be there next week. Title: Re: I can feel normal this week... Post by: Take2 on May 04, 2013, 12:28:24 PM Thanks for that Grey Kitty... . !
I know you are right. But it really helps reinforce it in my head to read that I will try to keep myself remembering the relaxed feeling. Although I do already feel anxiety worrying about fact that he has been soo much more relaxed away from work, he has texted, but I tense up thinking about the other shoe dropping when he returns... . I can only control my emotions and my reactions... . .I just need to not let anyone else control them... . Title: Re: I can feel normal this week... Post by: Grey Kitty on May 04, 2013, 10:19:33 PM I'm glad I can trigger a little inspiration :)
I'm thinking of what you mentioned... . talking to people, laughing, working, being yourself... . and like you said, all things you can control. Letting somebody else take those things away from you just isn't worth it! If you lose it for a while... . remember how good this felt and just decide to take it back. You know that saying... . "The best revenge is living well!" |