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Hi everyone: I have not been on in a long time about 9 months and am now in a new job, new apartment, and a new start.  I had to move out of the place we shared, and it was very cleansing to just put the stuff I had that she gave me on the street.

I worked an event at a local pub and helped sell t-shirts she walked on in, and did a double take seeing me working there I just nodded and kept going because she has said horrible things to me, trashed me in the bars and caused alot of problems with my step-mom  and her friend by infiltrating them. 

I could not believe she is the person I cared for... .  she has no smile in her eyes, and it was sad to sit there with our dog who she will not say hello to... . she had to walk by me all day and I just turned away or looked through her. Just a person I used to know.  After four hours I sat with a group of women and listened to the music and realized "OMG I have moved on and have a new life".

it's been three years, and it is good to know that this site and applying the wisdom of everyone has caused me to move on, and I was happy that day... . Sad for the loss but happy that I have new people in my life. 

 that's great! You sound open to your feelings (sadness over the loss), but not hostage to them! Yay! I know how much work it can take to get to this place. Yay you!

Thanks for sharing your success.

Love Blazing Star

Yay is right! Don't think I'm there yet but getting closer, you give me hope!   :)

Hello sea! Good to see you doing well! Indifference can be such a welcome feeling. Kuddos to you!

Yes that's what it was... .  indifference... .  and by the way after using hot yoga to deal with things, and now working a normal schedule I'm going to take the  yoga teacher certification course on weekends to give my self a weekend retreat and maybe a cool part-time job. 

Also now that I'm doing better I notice alot of my dysfunctional friends are dropping like flies... .  cleaning house YAY!