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Now, for the first time in three years he's telling me leaving he's leaving me. I'm trying to remember that other's have experienced this many many times. But he also could mean it.  Oh, wait... . he just came in and is telling me a different story. He's now saying that I'm pushing him out. I'm doing my best to keep calm and not engage. I can't leave the house as it's 11:00pm and we live in a city.  An hour ago he said he's not going to therapy and canceling the appointment. Now he says he's going to go, but further down the road. Who knows how true this is. Who know how true anything he says is. His GP is back from vacation, I think I should go and see him and try and tell him what's been happening.

I have also just found out some other info about what our public health service offers for DBT, and it's not the full 3 stages of treatment. Plus, I was told that the types of BPD's that are screened for treatment, and or the diagnosis is the far side of the spectrum, full blown expressions of the disorder. ie. in and out of hospital, low functioning etc. THE ONLY option is in a city 3 hours away and is $200 an hour. I got this news on Thursday. I feel like there's a huge mountain right in front of me that I HAVE to go over, that I can't go around, with no tools to climb.

I'm so sorry for all my negative posts. It's just that I live with so much hostility right now. Thanks for being there.