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When do they stop? I had the most vivid dream last night that my ex was with her new bloke. I was about to get married to my ex before her (Would never happen) & my ex turned up at the wedding because she broke up with her new bloke. Really mental dream.

She never replied to my drinks offer, so i can only assume she is now with a new person, which hurts. I don't have facebook etc So, i will never find out, unless i hear from friends.

I just want to stop thinking about her now. I'm bored of it.

I had a strange one last night. Was still with the ex shopping. I walked off ahead. I turn around and he looks annoyed. I look at his phone. He is texting me the words you're dumped. I ask why. He says it's because I am not to look at him.in that way.

My brain is so messed up sometimes lol

I couldn't be anymore fed up with thinking about her. Who's she with, is she thinking about me etc etc

If i could click my fingers to forget it all, i would.

She doesn't care about me, which is obvious. So, why should i waste my time caring about her!

There were two of us. We were condemned. We're were sentenced to hanged. She was there. She was not crying but smiling. I refused to let them hang me. I don't know about the other guy. Who he was.

Find some activities that requires you to think. A sport or paint ball gun fight. Anything that requires you to focus on something else. You have followed and seen enough info on here, to know the answer you might get by snooping will never satisfy you. It will only add more salt to an already tender wound. Stop the scratching at the scab and let it heal. Not easy to do, but you'll save yourself a lot of emotional pain, in the long run. Take care of you.

Trust me, I'm not snooping. That would hit me for six if I seem her in a picture with a new bloke. Each day does get easier, it's sad knowing that this is it, no longer in each others lives. But, I'm better now than what I was a month ago.

I don't know if its my character or nature, but it's almost like I want to wish her well. I know she has this week off because we were supposed to go on holiday.

Don't do it. I had the same feeling at times. They don't care about you. It over. Your trying to reason with a child mind set but worse. Every now and then I have the same feeling. Get mad let, the anger out by punch your bed or something let it out. Whatever it takes. Just stop yourself from making that contact. Your just extending the duration of the pain.   

I know. I can't delete her number because it always appears when you put the first part of her name in. It's so easy sending text messages, but it causes so many problems. 

Even a simple "Enjoy your week off :) x"

I won't send it.

I feel like i'm the one with BPD for always feeling the need to re-engage. She obviously isn't interested & doesn't care, so why do i still feel the need to reach out to her? I know nothing comes of it.

Eric we are human. Our feelings don't just go away. It's normal. Our feelings don't develop overnight and they don't just go away. You can't shut off your feelings like a light. If you could there would be something wrong with you. It's ok to have your feelings. It's ok to have anger. It's ok to act on it as long as no body gets hurt. That includes you. You be good to yourself and ride it out. Express your anger in healthy ways. Leave her alone. Take care of you.

God i'm pathetic. She must see im being pathetic.

She sees only herself. Get out of her. Get into you

She rang me again. I answered again.

Spoke for an hour, nothing about the relationship.

Sounds like she's drinking alot, she said "thought the break up would of done good, but... . "

I kept it light hearted.

When we stoped because I said I need to eat, she said ok, well I'll see you soon

Hmmm