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I'm probably obvious I have major depression as well as anxiety

Mixed adjustment disorder

Depression and anxiety... .

I got a GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) diagnosis was expecting PTSD. This psychologist is quite old school and not a believer in PTSD unless you have been in a war.

But GAD does fit and often goes with PTSD.

My diagnosis is different every time I go in for some psych help.

In my teens and twenties, I was diagnosed with moderate depression, in my early thirties it was dysthymia (chronic low mood) with some BPD traits, late thirties it was "agitated depression" (mixed state of hypomania, anxiety and depression), and in my forties it was bipolar type 2 and alcoholism (now in recovery). I've been prescribed prozac and topamax at different times but stopped taking each one after three weeks because of side effects.

In online tests I also test high for "Asperger traits."

I'm one of those people who has a little bit of a lot of different disorders.

I have Avoidant Personality Disorder. It's not extreme but it's there. One of the symptoms is actually a tendency to attach to people who are controlling like NPD or BPD.

Avoidant personality? Have to look that one up. Just from the sound you would think someone w BPD would drive you to an unbearable extreme

Well I got through the deaths of both my parents 10 months apart followed by my dogs death. All without medication (hard though) The first time my BPD bf dumped me for 10 days I ended up on valium for anxiety. I never thought that would happen to me after I had survived the other events med free. Crazy! WTF?

PTSD

PTSD

My first diagnosis was Mixed Adjustment Disorder due my separation form stbxBPDw and now is Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD).

Generalized anxiety disorder

I actually seen the name from this site and asked my therapist about it after receiving a 90% on the schema test for Avoidant personality. I think being married to a BPD gives me more reason to stay antisocial. He doesn't want to see people most of the time and I don't either. But the thing with Avoidant Personality is that they really do want to be social they just don't really know how and that fits me well. My husband is actually very talkative and charismatic, something I am drawn to because of my shyness so it works well. Our personality's fit dysfunctionally well together.

Long ago... ADHD, still adult ADHD... . but I think it is incorrect.

After much reflection... I am avoidant/disorganized attachment in general... which gives me a pretty high background anxiety level.

Was an adrenalin junkie when young, a bit detached from emotions all the time... . and I believe that is what made the pwBPD so devastating to me... she got past the wall I kept people at a distance with.

Since her... was told PTSD... . inclined to believe it, one day she ranted and raved arguing at me for nearly 7 hrs... till I finally left.

My pwBPD said I was codependent... I think beat down is more accurate, slowly getting back up.

The T I've been seeing since my latest r/s trouble has given me the most extensive tests yet, and he says we can rule out bipolar disorder or any other mood disorder! Yippee!

The only clear-cut mental issue plaguing me is alcoholism. He recommends antabuse and AA. My old drinking problem had definitely been creeping up on me. Problems with the r/s aggravate it; maybe I like being able to blame the uBPDh for my indulgence in alcohol.

Complex PTSD here... .can trace the "why" all the way back to childhood and other bad relationships... .17 year reprieve in a healing relationship only to land back here on the floor once again... .

Thing is - some of the "thoughts" I had as a teen were gone until my breakdown last month... .

I know Complex PTSD isn't getting its due... .a lot of people are diagnosed as borderline themselves when in fact is CPTSD... .My T tells me he believes BPD has its root in CPTSD and in fact believes they should change the label on the DSM... .

Interesting... .

Generalized Anxiety Disorder/Depression. I've seen quite a few of us have been diagnosed with this, that it makes me curious, if anyone here had panic attacks, and if they started before or after, you met your BPD partners. I started having panic attacks about over a year after I met my BPD girlfriend, and never had them before.

This is an interesting thread.  I haven't been diagnosed with anything, but I think I probably have some form of anxiety disorder and/or depression.  Judging from my inability to back down from my uBPDh's aggression lately, I'm wondering if I have some anger issues, but those don't arise in any other context other than with my H.

I was thinking about the topic of this thread today - not only do most of us likely have some sort of unhealthy tendencies to remain in these relationships even after the warning signs arise, but also there must be some damage done by the consistent emotional abuse from our pwBPD and the warped version of reality that we live in.  I feel like I'm being emotionally tortured a lot of the time.  When he's not overtly doing it, I'm doing it inside my own head because I've "bought into" his criticisms of me.

  Daylily

I have to second this. I feel what I go through most of the time is emotional torture, it's not something that breeds success and probably makes it to where I am more fearful of things in general.

My T says anger turned inside is depression.  I thought I wasn't an angry person as I never express it... .didn't really know I had it.  Thought I was just really laid back.  But I deal /dealt with it in an healthy way ... .that is turning it inside myself. 

PTSD and burnout

I'm really glad I joined this thread.  Good info here.