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O.o i thought id come vent... .shes decided that pretty well leaving me in the dark is the best way to go... .so i've pretty much heard from her every day, many times, for the last 3 years(unless somethings like dier wrong, and the clouds are falling, thats been the only time i dont here from her, so when i dont hear from her i panic, she knows this)... .now she decided to wean me off  lmfao... .god im so blood addicted its not even funny =.=

so the last couple of weeks i decided i would try and not text her as much,  when i did she got worried asked what was wrong... etc... this week, she does the same thing to me and i dont know if im happy bacuse i think its really stupid of my to actully be panicing when i dont hear from her, i think itwill be good for me if this is whats going on and nothing seriously bad is happening, teach us both that the world wont fall apart completely with out the other. and this is what i wanted to do anyway. the other part of me is annoyed because i wanted to make that choice for me, i feel like she just stole my gaining power in my life back. seriously her words "i want not to panic you"... .what the heck so do you want not to painc me, or your self when you dont hear from me...  i just cant help to feel like this is because i didnt text her first thing when i woke up that day.  then again maybe everythings ok on her end and its time to move along also... .

Hi quaszx

No, being addicted is not funny at all. 

Take some deep breaths.

Do you have something else to focus on it for some while? To give you a bit of a break? Like take a walk or exercice or seing friends?

Are you working with a T for yourself?

oh the next 3 days will be fine, i'm working a lot anyways so hopefully it'll be busy enough at my jobs til it all passes... .ya i have other friends but i dont wanta be all moody with them, so i keep things short. i'll be good, i mean this time isnt really that bad compaired to many times before, so im pretty used to the motions, but when all this is said and done, do i really want keep doing this forever or should i just close that door a little more... .every week? every month? once a year?

oh and yes i do a have a T, but realisticly theres nothing she can do, my little, big internal battle will pass in time, and i'll either be back to normal or somewhere new:)