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Title: 38 days of NC - trying to get my mojo back Post by: hopealways on October 21, 2013, 11:17:21 PM 38 days ago I decided to finally stand up to her, tell her what was on my mind, she didn't like what she heard, she dished it out for over a year but couldn't take 10 minutes of it. I asked her to leave. Radio Silence since then.
We are all in the same boat, trust me I feel the pain daily but I try to stay positive. What I miss the most is my Mojo. Just this week I feel like it is slowly coming back. People look at me with more of a twinkle in their eyes, girls do a double take again, I am starting to get my confidence slightly back. Of course it gets better, I just need patience. We all do. Damn this BPD stuff, it really sucks. I thought I was invincible when it came to women. But I tell myself it is not the woman who did this, it is the disorder + my lack of love as a child that fell for the manipulations. My friends, we can think about all the good times, all the memories, but life goes on. To my female friends on this board: a real gentleman should treat you well like a lady deserves to be treated. You did not deserve this treatment by him-be glad that he is out of your life. And to my male friends on this board: we are men and stronger and better than this disorder: let's gather our strengths and move forward. Title: Re: 38 days of NC - trying to get my mojo back Post by: Ironmanrises on October 21, 2013, 11:26:02 PM Hope... .
The fact that... . You asked her to leave... . Considering what you experienced... . Took bravery. I commend you for that. You will get your mojo back. Your self reflection... . And detection... . Of the lack of self love... . Is important. Now you know... . And are aware... . Of what needs to be repaired. Keep posting on here my friend. You are very positive. And that helps all of us. Keep healing. And stay in radio silence. Title: Re: 38 days of NC - trying to get my mojo back Post by: Lucky Jim on October 22, 2013, 04:14:10 PM Like what you posted, hopealways. Be grateful that your detour into a BPD r/s was thankfully brief relative to some of us (like me) who were mired in BPD marriages and relationships for extended periods (16 yrs. in my case). I admire your resolve and understanding of the disorder. That you can see a reason why you were drawn to a BPD r/s is also a positive. I'm back on my path these days and am confident that you will get your Mojo back, too. Lucky Jim
Title: Re: 38 days of NC - trying to get my mojo back Post by: hopealways on October 22, 2013, 08:43:23 PM Thank you Ironmanfalls and Lucky Jim. Yes it took courage-it was hard to say those words to her, sometimes I regret it but it happened for a reason. If I had parted on friendly terms I could not have healed as well or as quickly.
Title: Re: 38 days of NC - trying to get my mojo back Post by: Ironmanrises on October 22, 2013, 09:09:00 PM Thank you Ironmanfalls and Lucky Jim. Yes it took courage-it was hard to say those words to her, sometimes I regret it but it happened for a reason. If I had parted on friendly terms I could not have healed as well or as quickly. Welcome. A lesson in itself. |