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Today is a special day for me and my ex.

I'm sad that I can't contact her.  I've learned so much here.  I wish I had found this place a year before we met.  Even then, I don't think it would have made a difference.  I got so deep in the rabbit hole I began finding out that even she probably didn't know truth from lies anymore.

It's a very sad situation.

That's all for now.  I just had to say it to someone.

Hi QuestioningFaith,

We hear you !  |iiii

I agree with you, it is a sad situation, and BPD is a sad thing as well.  It is hard to understand that people can be so terribly damaged from a very young age.

Unfortunately it is reality.  And you're right they don't know truth from lies, it just evolves in the way it makes them feel better.

If it was a special day, how about doing something just for yourself today ?  Right now you are the most important person in your life.  Concentrate on your healing ! Take care !

Reg

I understand the sad feelings that you have.  You want to contact her on your special day but you can't, and even if you could it would only make things worse.  It's good to get it off your chest here.  It helps.

I too wish I knew then what I know about BPD now.  It would have helped me understand what was going on and I would have been able to handle her better.  It would also have helped me to better understand the issues I have and how they affected the dynamic of the relationship.  Maybe the end results would have been similar, but at least I would have had a better chance to make things work out and a better chance of protecting myself from a BPD witch.

I also wish I had a time machine so I could go back in time and undo all the mistakes I made with her.  Those mistakes were held against me and snowballed into the destruction of the relationship.  It's left me in so much pain.  I'm still trying to figure out how to move on without her in my life.  I feel so empty and lost.