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Title: My Staying Part 2: Living Separately Post by: peacebaby on November 16, 2013, 07:08:44 PM Hey guys! My partner Carmel and I lived together for 12 years and she moved out today just as we'd agreed. I am so proud of us for finally being able to do the healthy thing. The hard part now is maintaining our partnership through what comes next. I still so much want to grow old with Carmel as my partner, I feel so much more in love with her now that she has set me free. My home is my home again, where no one gets to take their anger or moods out on me. Period.
Just checked in with her and she's doing fine, if exhausted, but she laughed. All through the move she asked me to keep reminding her that this was the right thing to do. I did, and it is. I'm calm, excited about my old friend/new room mate coming over tomorrow and helping me finish moving stuff around. Very excited about my new journey and putting myself first. I know Carmel's going to do great as well--we were really holding each other back but the farther we got from each other the easier it was to see. Will keep you posted on my new kind of staying. :) Title: Re: My Staying Part 2: Living Separately Post by: peacebaby on November 17, 2013, 02:40:21 PM I think the real deal is that, even though my heart and my neurosis and my ego want me to stay, I really need to stop thinking of myself as staying. We both want to but it's just not healthy right now. See you on the other boards!
Title: Re: My Staying Part 2: Living Separately Post by: 123Phoebe on November 17, 2013, 03:12:49 PM Take it easy, peacebaby
One day at a time... . Title: Re: My Staying Part 2: Living Separately Post by: peacebaby on November 17, 2013, 04:06:09 PM Thank you. You're right. I just need to radically accept where I am now, in myself, and see how it goes.
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