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Title: That inner voice…"Did I do anything wrong today?" Post by: Amber3 on November 25, 2013, 10:50:54 AM Hi everyone,
It’s been over a year since my “emotional affair” with uBPD ended and I have read tons on these boards which help me greatly. :) Though I still think about him, I feel an “awareness” of my issues (i.e: codependency…)…and feelings. I see things from childhood having a part, definitely. But I have a ways to go... . How do you grow from that inner voice that comes around as you’re trying to go to sleep and says: “Did I say/do anything wrong today?” (Especially after visiting with family (FOO, yep!)) I have young adult children who are doing so well... .but a lot of FOG since I’m in a marriage I don't want (not BPD) and job that’s ridiculous, though I do see ways to strengthen my boundaries while at work. I have my eye on getting out of there, but just missed the deadline to apply for a job I’d like too... so it’s my fault, I see that. I want to feel excited about life, but really don’t. Title: Re: That inner voice…"Did I do anything wrong today?" Post by: Surnia on November 26, 2013, 10:59:43 PM Hi Amber
I was familiar with such a voice too and not being exited about life... . I started to validate myself. My feelings and my actions. I started to see positive things about me or sometimes I had to allow myself to be lazy / wrong. It needs some steady practice - after a while I realized its much better now. |