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I have been successful with NC for over a month now.  I have actually found myself much happier with a new job that I love, new home, socializing again, etc.  However, some of the drama left over from the crazy past year is still lingering around.  The ex bf with uBPD has fractured just about every relationship he has ever had, including friends and business associates.  Some of these friends and associates have come to me asking for information to prove how they have been cheated and defrauded.  Up until this week, I have been reluctant to share the information, because I didn't want to open that can of worms.  Well, to make a long story short, I gave up info that will probably land the ex either in jail or the very least in civil court with 3 or 4 different clients.  This has led to me having very strange dreams and they all seem to be violent in nature, either me trying to claw his eyes out, or him stalking me ready to kill me.  Part of me is regretting giving up that information, but the other part of me wants to stop him from hurting others both financially and emotionally in the future.  None of this has anything to do with the new woman he has paraded around to our friends, but I sure would like to warn her too for what she is in for.  I know I will refrain from doing that, but these others that he has basically robbed came to me, and I felt obliged to help them, yet somewhere inside me I still feel sorry for the lying cheating thieving ass.  I'm also worried of the explosion that will happen when he figures out his financial games are up.  I will sure be glad when this nightmare is a thing of the past, and when my dreams aren't filled with his face.

I had a dream last night too... .  I walked into a convenience store to buy some gum, and my exBPDgf was working behing the counter with her huge, evil smile.  As I approached the counter, she pulled out a pack of condoms and laughed saying these were her and my replacements favourites, and that I shouldnt worry because they are doubliing up... i.e wearing 2 at a time.   I then laughed, and walked out of the store feeling amused, and sorry for her/him...     I woke up shortly after that, and had a good laugh...   I think im healing, and this is evident in the dream.    I believe you are healing too, but just still in the anger stage...   hang in there, it gets better. 

Thank you.  I do hope it will fade into nothing more than a bad dream soon.  I do fear that the near future might be littered with some explosions though.  I know I did the right thing by revealing the truth, but doing the right thing isn't always the easy thing.  The dream I had this morning shook me up quite a bit, but I know its because of the impending drama that will be taking place over the next little while and my own anxiety over it.