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Title: I love you more than myself? Post by: Jox on January 04, 2014, 06:19:24 AM Hi all,
We hace been separated due to movimg to Imdia for a lwower time. We had to do different things in different parts of the world, and after a month we are both in India, but in different places, and wont be together for a month. He, my husband with BPD, just wrote me, I love you more than myself. We also spoke on the phone today, and he is dying from need to see me. Yet, I dont feel this way, he has improved tremendously, due to the treatments we are doing, that actually I did myself. Yet when we separated to do get things ready for this big move, after years I found myself on my own. I am reflecting: . On hoe evil he has been towards me . On how much he controls my social life . On how much focus he needs, and attention . And that all my life is revolving about his well being. I dont miss him. Today on the phone I said it and it felt wrong. I feel I am strangled with python snake... . I am nervous about our reunion... . Dont know what to say more, I dream of escaping from my life sentence. Jox Title: Re: I love you more than myself? Post by: Jox on January 04, 2014, 06:25:03 AM I said on the phone I miss you.
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