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Hi guys I hope your new year is off to a great start.

Well it was a year ago today that my uBPDexgf brought over a list of propertys we were planning on moving out together. We also had sex and everything seemed normal and fine. This would be the last time i ever saw her as my girlfriend. After her visit the horrible silent treatments began out of nowhere and when I called her out on it I got belittled and eventually dumped via text a couple of weeks later. It still hurts a bit that I got betrayed by someone I have so much love to but I guess that's normal. If anything after a year I can at least see now someone who loved me would never treat me like that in a million years so all my ex's words were empty. I still feel lonely at times but at least now I can handle it and it doesn't eat me up inside. My ex also pops into my head quite often still but now that I have dealt with the pain I can at least switch her off and think about something else. Finally I sometimes still question how she could treat me the way she did and I also accept I most likely will never know (apart from the fact she is mentally ill).

I have come a long way in a year... . 6 months even. Have faith you will see things how they really are and take your power back :)

It'll be a year in march for me. March 21 of all days. Encouraging to read this. Thank you for posting it. I don't really like to talk about her and how she left anymore but I would like to stop burying it. I won't speak to her and I have no reason to. I will not accept her attempts to contact me. She just simply walked out and didn't come back. Left everything. Clothes, personal effects, everything. Poetically enough, there was a fire. Destroyed everything. Nothing left but ashes. (Shut up,I didn't start it). The fire started at another house and spread to mine. I wasn't even home. I swear! Ashes... I get to rebuild from absolutely scratch. So it was like living with a ghost there having all of her stuff around me. Dude... . Sorry you got me started... . One year! Congratulations on how far you've come!

I'm glad you have come a long way yourself Perfidy. I still have some of her things she never bothered trying to collect. Just silly little things like perfume, eyedrops and a couple of rings etc... . I guess I will throw them out when I am ready but they are packed away where I can't see them.

Yes, I threw out my wedding dress, all pictures and every single memento.

I have nothing in my home to remind me of him. It did help. That and the fact that he is mentally ill, abused me in front of my children and took advantage of me financially.

Not much there I'd like to have back. Miss the sex though.

L