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Ever since I broke up with the ex, ( 6 weeks) I remainded NC. I know its the best way to go, but its hard sometimes.

I blocked mail, phone, and FB. There is no possibilty for ex to contact me, without putting much afford in it. Today I recieved a mailbomb from a new adres the ex created, within one hour I recieved 15 mails!

I only read the first lengthy one, because I didnt know it was coming form my ex. The others ones are deleted by me immediatly.

The content of the very lengthy mail is painfull and meant to hurt. The ex is out for the kill. The ex writes about suspecting borderline traits but... . it is because of me and my very unhealty behavior during our r/s that these traits are surfacing. 

MY behavior was so unhealty and disturbed that the ex simply had to cheat on me, because there was no other way! The accusation of me being so jealous all the time, and how my unhealty jealousy? created a breach of trust, where there was simply no other option left than to cheat on me during the r/s.

It hurts, and its mindbending because it is so far from the truth and the reality of our r/s.

The mail goes on and on about MY disturbed behavior and how it created the crazy making behavior of the ex. It is all my fault and my responsibility.

I cannot even phantom how twisted and warped this is.   :'(

The ex and I share mutual friends and we are both active on a social media site similair to FB. For the last 6 weeks I have hardly been active there but I am starting to miss my friends there. I dont want to be confronted with the ex but feel very isolated at this moment. Next week i am invited to a birthday party where I could run into the ex, and i am not sure what to do.

I know I never ever want to talk or see my ex again, nothing good can come out of it.

How can i stay in touch with my friends and guard myself against the accusations being made by the ex? Do I defend myself? Do I write about it towards my friends?  I want to maintain NC and act as if I havent read/recieved the mails, but im affraid i am going to implode on the inside, because i feel so much betrayal, anger and pain, on top of the isolation I feel at this moment.

I cannot believe I was in a r/s for 2 years with somebody that i didnt know at all... .

I want to scream, write and yell!

1. Ignore, probably the best option.

2. Report the email if your being harassed.

3. Reply to it and pretend you have no idea who she is

That is horrible, Dog biscuit! You are doing a good job not engaging and replying. I would, however, save those emails somewhere (if you can rescue them from the trash folder), as you might need them someday. Good job and not reading the rest though. She is engaging in massive projection towards you, casting off her bad traits onto you to justify them in her mind. You know your r/s with you friends the best. The ones that are close to you and the ones you are not. Could you confide in any of them, just one? The emails would be good backup. I feel isolated, too, because my close friends live hours away, and I am in a small ethnic community, though in a large town. Mine has been doing sublte devaluations of me on her FB (which is why I blocked her months ago, got sick of seeing that stuff), which are obviously aimed at me. In my mind, I take comfort in the fact that the crazier she sounds, and if I am all but  "radio silent" then perhaps some will see it for what it is. That's about all I can do. The isolation is indeed hurtful, and I'm sorry.

I was not very jealous during the r/s. I felt insecure at times because the ex threatend to cheat on me on several occasions.

I never took these threaths very serious, and believed them to be immature and desparate. I could not believe someone would turn to such a "solution".

During the r/s I was in the hospital for 4 weeks, due to an serious medical issue. I am starting to realise that during that time, while I was sick and fighting for my life, my ex was rocking the sheets with someone else.

I can hardly believe it, but I know its true  

Thanks Turkish and Strikeforce for your reply's!

Sorry to read that you experience the isolation also TurKish, it sucks  .

Ignore, ignore, ignore, it is what i have been doing these last few weeks. I ignore what the ex writes on the social media site we share, I ignore the  anonymous phonecalls on my house phone, I ignore and ignore. And my anger build, builds and builds up.

I am about to explode!

The ex is a "he"but due to the fact that I dont want the story to be to recognisable, I try to write about the ex instead of "he".

ok.  neither gender or orientation matter,  as the stories here attest to.  it still abusive,  hurtful and unacceptable.  mine too  became someone I  didn't think she was... .   the very things I was always accused of.  now she mirrors someone else.  so disorienting... .

Yes it is Turkish... . very disorientating and crazy making! The mirroring is so sad.

15? Man, that's a lot of emails.

I know even reading an email from my ex where she's being nice to me can ruin my entire day. I've got about 9 I still haven't read. I don't plan to either.

If I were you, I'd just to my best to ignore it. Once you start reading them, it's going to effect you emotionally.

It's pretty awesome you went NC for 6 weeks immediately following the breakup. I wish I'd done that. Very smart.