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Title: why cant i walk away? Post by: simplyasiam on January 18, 2014, 06:34:46 PM six years of this BPD mess and ive tried everything I can think of everything ive learned here in treatment online and from reading book, nothing helps.
I see now its up to her to want help. we recycle every two weeks now. im so use to this its crazy. I have become stronger I don't let her just run over me I use the tools I learned her. I try and let her bad moods pass. it seems the less I react to her bad mood the worse she acts. I left her home four days ago and didn't hear from till this this morning... . I hate it that I love you so much, and after that the blame game was on. I took no blame for the way thing are and she only seemed to get more upset. I know whats coming the good by call txt or email I will not reply and with in a week she will ask me to come back, same story for the last nine months. im not hurting inside anymore. I know I can live with out her, ive been doing it for months. I get nothing from the r/s but still I try when ever she wants to. ive dated other women, women that don't have a seven year old trapped inside running the show. I know its up to me to end this if its going to end. I don't know if she could ever be so strong as to stop. I really wonder about myself at times Title: Re: why cant i walk away? Post by: Moonie75 on January 18, 2014, 06:39:23 PM Have you sought any professional help? Doctor, therapist etc? Do you have any support network in place?
It sounds like you are in a very upsetting & difficult place. Title: Re: why cant i walk away? Post by: maxen on January 18, 2014, 06:42:01 PM are you yourself getting any emotional satisfaction out of this?
Title: Re: why cant i walk away? Post by: simplyasiam on January 18, 2014, 07:13:35 PM yes I have good support in my family and hers but no doctor.
I really get nothing from it, im no upset or hurt not hopeful kind of seem like im just killing time |