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Title: S4 unintentionally funny Post by: Turkish on January 28, 2014, 11:51:32 PM I've had the kids all week during the day. She's leaving tmorrow morning to go out of state, then back sat and Sunday night, so T-minus three days! She came home from work and then wanted to go to the store and her dads house. S4 wanted to go with her. He makes a big deal out of kisses and hugs goodbye, sweet kid (despite his tantrums... . gets it from his mom). As they were exiting, he said, "give mommy a kiss!" I looked at her and said,"that's over buddy." I entertained the thought of going over and pretending, just to see what she would do, but walked away. She's "going to the gym" tonight after packing, but I am sure she used that pretext to also see him. Maybe the same tonight as last night, coming home 40 mins after it closes, when its all of a mile away. She usually asks, "is that ok?" I really think she would stay home if I said no, its that weird how she looks to me. I don't care. It changes nothing, and wouldn't change her, which is why despite two weeks of me pouring myself into getting her back in sept and oct, I "technically" ended it, saying, "it's done!" I think she was relieved at that point, taking a small amount of her guilt away. And she does feel guilty on some level, I know. But it changes nothing. And the love addiction is stronger. Two empty mirrors gazing into the other's abyss.
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