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Title: Regurgitating Post by: Perfidy on January 30, 2014, 01:26:07 PM I haven't found it necessary to barf up much more of the past. I'm in a good spot right now. I still have rumination daily, but it isn't severe, and sometimes I barely even notice it. I can feel myself getting better.
I know reflecting on the failure of a relationship is a natural and necessary part of healing. The only way I could get past the pain and suffering, depression and anxiety, is to go beyond the criticism of another person's behavior and general persona. Reflecting on specific events and qualities must have some usefulness, otherwise we wouldn't do it, however, if it becomes prolonged it isn't healthy. At a little over ten months, I've come a long way. I'm happy more than I'm not. I can add happiness to my gratitude list. I'm alone and happy. I am happy with myself. Title: Re: Regurgitating Post by: seeking balance on January 30, 2014, 02:37:00 PM I haven't found it necessary to barf up much more of the past. I'm in a good spot right now. I still have rumination daily, but it isn't severe, and sometimes I barely even notice it. I can feel myself getting better. I know reflecting on the failure of a relationship is a natural and necessary part of healing. The only way I could get past the pain and suffering, depression and anxiety, is to go beyond the criticism of another person's behavior and general persona. Reflecting on specific events and qualities must have some usefulness, otherwise we wouldn't do it, however, if it becomes prolonged it isn't healthy. At a little over ten months, I've come a long way. I'm happy more than I'm not. I can add happiness to my gratitude list. I'm alone and happy. I am happy with myself. Good stuff Perfidy - thanks for sharing! Title: Re: Regurgitating Post by: Perfidy on January 30, 2014, 09:54:50 PM Thank you SB. It's been quite an experience. I plan to stick around for a while longer. I know that I've come far and I also know I'm not done yet. I committed to a full year of grieving/detaching. The healing could go on indefinitely. I'm curious to see exactly how good I can feel. Kind of makes me feel like I've been cheating myself out of happiness.
Title: Re: Regurgitating Post by: Changingman on January 31, 2014, 12:21:17 AM Perfidy,
This longing for something, just out of reach. It feels familiar. Family Title: Re: Regurgitating Post by: Perfidy on January 31, 2014, 07:20:53 AM Yes CM, it seems that way. I recognize the hole that is in all of our beings that says never enough. I've had enough.
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