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After being broken up for a month I decided to go No contact.That lasted for a month.I got a text last night asking about some photos with a disclaimer saying she was not reaching out for anything other than the photos.We had a total of 5 texts (keeping on topic and polite) with her letting me know she was annoyed with me.

I was having a bad day already but slowly getting over the relationship then this has to happen.It stirred up a bunch of emotions in me,mostly  negative one's towards her.I honestly feel like she was seeing what my reaction would be and go from there.God forbid she put herself out there and be vulnerable.I want so badly to fire back back at her telling her to never contact me again but Im sure it will trigger so im doing my best to just hold back and move on.

Sorry for the bad day.  Sometimes when it rains it pours with these things

good to hear you didn't get into it too much with her it takes a lot of self control.

You going to give her the photos and call it a day?

So now you've blocked her from being able to text, call or email you and you blocked her on all social media as well so that this doesn't happen again, right?

I'd be a mess too if mine somehow got through my "defenses" this early in to my recovery and so I'm making damn sure that she can't do it just to screw with me.

No,I told her I do not have the photos and that is the truth.

I have not blocked her from anything.No real point you can always make a fake profile and creep if you want.

I had the worst day yesterday of the two months since the breakup. I was depressed, (took a nap which I never do) ,drank and felt angry all day.I feel so much better today like im just ready to move on.I think what hurt was her throwing the "no im not reaching out" disclaimer.I understand what she was trying to do and it worked for a day but i deserve better.

Triggers gonna trigger. You think the pain is buried, then it's like the Evil Dead all over again. Old issues rising, writhing, wailing from the grave.