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Im so hurt amd angry,he woild even dare after his cruelty and betrayal wow! Im fuming.,im,not respomding tho not to hirt him but bc there is no way I want to speak to him right now!

Sorry for your pain. Keep posting and keep sharing.  We understand the pain.  Try and remember your ex is Bat Sht Crazy.  It's a mental illness.  A Disorder.

As a general rule, pwBPD have little to no remorse for their actions.  They can not take responsibility.  They do not feel guilt.  The do feel shame, but suppress it. So nothing changes and they can do most anything.  Many of the actions would be unconscionable.

So depersonalize the text.  Vent here.  Write what you really want to say to him here.  Right now.

Tell him on this post what a pathetic crazy manipulative abusive ass that he is and if there's any God or justice, that he's going to burn in hell for the rest of eternity.

And then keep reading/writing.  We've been there before. We understand.   Are you seeing a Therapist?  It helped me a lot.

You are not alone.

T

Omg I am feeling anger for the first time in years and im lovin it. I dont feel vengeful just letting myself feel it  im looking at this positvely now thos was meant to happen. Im not hpy nc of some I,agined power over him I feel embarrassed for him. I woild be so ashamed of my actions I would disappesr from that persons life. Which I thought he would. It really spisses,me off,he send,s,ne a hey,how are,you text like nothung just happened. Im not trying to demonize him... But hell dude what he did to a lot of ppl would be unforgiveable. I forgive him but I dont want tjat in my life. I am scared of what comes next when I ignore,him. Especially after what he did last night over imagined wrong doing! Im afraid of what he is capable of now. What does he think he is doing. Pls someone explain to me? What does he want put of me now after calling me a useless piece of trash and he deserves so much better than me? GO find her then! Im beautiful in and out I treated,him well and he treated me like I was npthing to him! Smeared my name to friends and family! what the heck? When I effing love him! I actually love him. But I dont lpve who ever that was last night and if,i have to accept tjat in order to have small moments of good no thank you. I was suicidal over last night... He told me he wanted nothing to do with me and here it is... Not even a day later? Guess what?, you arent the strong one couldnt even last a day,without me  why? Bc im the one that can do better and you are weak and hurt others to make ypurself feel superior you dont deserve me. You hurt me beyond compare. nd ill never let you back in. ever.