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I noticed that as good weather gradually coming we got much more thread about missing, longing, grieving our exes. Do you feel it's getting harder?

You hit the nail on the head.

Instead if thinking about enjoying the weather I can't help thinking about all the plans we made and the holiday that never was.

It's a long journey

All you can do is carry on  day by day

I have noticed that on nice beautiful days that I am feeling so ready for spring, it makes me miss the good things more.  Not sure why because he was a total ass in the spring summer fall and winter, but I do notice this too.

yes, as i remember the good times we had during the past summer... .

Maybe it has something to do with the passage of time and as the seasons roll around, it's a reminder of the length of time we have been apart.

Thats just my theory :)

I don't know if it's the weather, but I have been missing her more. Maybe because I know for sure she's replaced me. Before I was angry it stomped out some of the pain. Now I'm just baffled and hurting and missing her. Why? I have no idea. Lack of closure after being blacked out I guess.

Yes, more challenging. For me, spring is new life a new beginning.  People are happier.  My uBPDH acts happier. Seeing this happiness fools me into thinking that his behavior "could be" here to stay. I finally know better. Also, when I am feeling lighter I leg down my guard a bit. Can't allow that now. Today, it was a beautiful diay and I chose to think "new beginning for me, not us".  How freeing.

It's been worse for me as well, but I'm not sure if it's because it's spring time or because our two year anniversary would have been on the 17th of this month, or because two weeks ago she decided to show up at a place she knew I would be at.

Actually I felt worse when it was cold and most of my friends spend there time with their partners.

But now it's spring, the weather gets better! If you worked on yourself in the gym after the break up as I did it's now your time to shine! Go out, have fun, meet new people!

Me and my ex broke up in autumn and I remember seeing all the leafs slowly falling off the trees. It might sounds cheesy but I felt like looking at everything we shared is slowly fading away, just like those leafs.

But now you can see new tiny sprouts growing again, everything will be green again, a new summer is approaching. It makes me realize that even when our ex is gone, life goes on and a new spring is coming even without her being around! And new memories can be created, better ones, without all the drama and craziness.

Furthermore, I clearly remember that last year around this time I had one of my 100000 break ups with my ex. It was because I coincidently dropped a make up pallet of her. Ofc we couldn't just talk about it... . she had to cry that loud that even our neighbors heard it and left my place... . and of course it was a reason to break up once again.

So would it be better if she was still around? I don't think so. This way I can enjoy the sunny days and the beauty of spring without someone who constantly makes me feel bad about myself!