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Greetings, I am so new, and have crammed hundreds of hours of reading into the last week. Trying to be available if nothing else.

Four months ago, she was angry about what I did, and of course, angry if I check in with her. "We're done" she says with the same expressions and I'll say (most times ) I heard you, and I get it, I apologize, I saw you from over there and wanted to say hi.

Then she angrily drive away, and I sometimes ask her to please, let me know what this anger is about, her reply is always, I can't you believe you think I would do that (pretty big). I usually get another angry "it's over {RealName}". Poof.

It's like she wants to be stuck in this same angry frame of mind. I have seen her walking and she will glance and see me and, poof, that expression and instant anger. I have written a few emails stating, I get it, it's over and as far as what we agree on, it doesn't matter unless we are a couple so I don't need to talk about it.

Same message, she tells me with the same expression, same tone every time. Leaves like I am a violent person. No whining about the sting, I subject myself to it. I have had some of the best days of my life with her after a breakup, I would be stupid to not be available.

Sorry, what is that. Like an on switch setting her back to this mad at him point.

Thanks

Hey, my behavior looks like standing still and letting her hit me with a baseball bat hoping she will tire enough to talk. I love analogies when playing my own crazy behavior down.