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Title: UPDATE: Is it the St. Johns Wort OR does it really get better? Hummmm.. Post by: sirensong65 on May 27, 2014, 08:41:18 AM Good Morning, Folks:
I just wanted to update you all on my current state to hopefully, encourage some of you that, yes, it does indeed get better. THE FACTS: exBPD broke it off with me in November of last year (made for a God awful holiday season). We briefly recycled in February, just in time to V Day. Only to crash and burn the week after. I went NC then. Started on St. Johns Wort and SAMe two weeks ago. Last Monday I reached out to him via email (Friday was his birthday, and I wanted to acknowledge.) I got NO RESPONSE. The last several days I have rolled out of bed and oddly enough he was NOT the first thing I thought of. He has been for MONTHS. I have a real date with someone I am truly attracted to on Friday and he is someone my good friend knows quite well. (Said I wouldn't date for a year so we shall see... . ) My point is, I don't know if it is the St. Johns Wort, the fact that I have filled my free time with activities with friends and my kids to fill my days, I have gotten in shape OR just plain on passing of time, but I am heading out and away from this pain. I DOES get better. I know he has moved on and has a replacement. I accept I was his host ad now he has found another therefore I am no longer a priority in his life. I know he is emotionally sick and will never change. And I am FINE WITH ALL OF THIS. This has beena huge learning anf growth curve for me. Sadly since the start of my journey, I have had two other girlfriends encounter the same thing. But because of all I have learned here and through just breathing through it, I am helping them out of the darkness too. For all of you still stuck, believe me when I say I know where you are. But it DOES really get better. I am living proof... . Title: Re: UPDATE: Is it the St. Johns Wort OR does it really get better? Hummmm.. Post by: christoff522 on May 27, 2014, 08:44:05 AM Good Morning, Folks: I just wanted to update you all on my current state to hopefully, encourage some of you that, yes, it does indeed get better. THE FACTS: exBPD broke it off with me in November of last year (made for a God awful holiday season). We briefly recycled in February, just in time to V Day. Only to crash and burn the week after. I went NC then. Started on St. Johns Wort and SAMe two weeks ago. Last Monday I reached out to him via email (Friday was his birthday, and I wanted to acknowledge.) I got NO RESPONSE. The last several days I have rolled out of bed and oddly enough he was NOT the first thing I thought of. He has been for MONTHS. I have a real date with someone I am truly attracted to on Friday and he is someone my good friend knows quite well. (Said I wouldn't date for a year so we shall see... . ) My point is, I don't know if it is the St. Johns Wort, the fact that I have filled my free time with activities with friends and my kids to fill my days, I have gotten in shape OR just plain on passing of time, but I am heading out and away from this pain. I DOES get better. I know he has moved on and has a replacement. I accept I was his host ad now he has found another therefore I am no longer a priority in his life. I know he is emotionally sick and will never change. And I am FINE WITH ALL OF THIS. This has beena huge learning anf growth curve for me. Sadly since the start of my journey, I have had two other girlfriends encounter the same thing. But because of all I have learned here and through just breathing through it, I am helping them out of the darkness too. For all of you still stuck, believe me when I say I know where you are. But it DOES really get better. I am living proof... . I would say its both. Yes it does get better. Once we are over the 'what the heck' of it all, we can just grieve it as a normal thing and get it over and done with and move on. Title: Re: UPDATE: Is it the St. Johns Wort OR does it really get better? Hummmm.. Post by: 1989 on May 27, 2014, 10:56:40 AM Yay, sirensong65!
|iiii Title: Re: UPDATE: Is it the St. Johns Wort OR does it really get better? Hummmm.. Post by: lifeafter18years on May 27, 2014, 11:18:46 AM I am glad to hear because it does not feel like that right now but I am barely in my 4th week of losing my POS so called Husband that has never really been a father to his kids but I am starting to see all I am gaining/had from losing such as my Dignity, Sanity, Self Respect, Self Love, Strength, Courage and Hope. Little by little. So thank you again for your words... . I really like hearing it will get better... . eventually.
Title: Re: UPDATE: Is it the St. Johns Wort OR does it really get better? Hummmm.. Post by: corraline on May 27, 2014, 09:17:16 PM Great to hear sirensong65 !
I believe everything we do in the direction towards our healing is helpful. I am also taking a few supplements and herbs to help me along. I thinks its helping too. Its focusing on ourselves and practicing good self care. Title: Re: UPDATE: Is it the St. Johns Wort OR does it really get better? Hummmm.. Post by: cosmonaut on May 27, 2014, 09:21:27 PM Hey, Siren, I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better. That is wonderful news. I know you have been through a long, dark night - as have we all. So happy that dawn is breaking for you.
Keep going and keep posting. You can be a true inspiration to others here that are still in tremendous pain. |iiii |