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Hi.

I just wanted to share this with you. I started a blog on wordpress. Writing helps and is painful at the same time.

Not easy for me to share since I know I am not the greatest writer, but maybe I will improve. :)

Also.

Thank you. This forum and especially the people on here have helped me tremendously. I am in agony.

But I might not be alive without this forum. I mean it.

Pipehitter

I started reading your blog today... . it is very poignant ... . and i could feel all of what you were feeling when you wrote those words... .

It is so painful being in this place with what we are feeling... . and as time passes our emotions change... . minute by minute... . day by day... . but yet "they" never leave us really... .

I understand your pain... . boy do I understand... . and I agree ... . without those here I would have truly "drowned" a long time ago...

I've learned over a short period of time that journaling or writing a blog such as you have... . helps enormously with the process... .

Each and every day I face a different set of emotions but yet as you had written... . I'm always thinking... . just what was it like for her... . did she ever feel all of that wonder and hope... . or was she that disassociated from the life before us... . I guess I'll never know... . I'm only left with all of the feelings that I thought were real for me.

But alas a realization Pipehitter... . if it was only me... then I have to get back to that place where I was happy... . how happy I was to be alive.

You can get to that place as well ... .

Keep writing... . it will help your soul heal...

Big hugs

Peace

CR

Thank you... .

Problem with being happy again as before... .

She was the one making me happier than before!

I actually have to stop myself from writing too much.  :)

It's incredible how much it helps. At least for the time writing.