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Hi Lovely people :)

Posting today as having a bit of a rough time sorting through my thoughts.

Please feel free to have a read through my previous posts; in a nutshell:

I'm now 7 months NC with my sister and our mutual close friend.

I was painted black after a ridiuclous argument that got out of hand.

I was sent a number of abusive and attacking text messages and told to stay away as well as being blocked on social media.

OUr mutual friend lives with her and she did make some feeble efforts to remain in contact me with my text message only in the early days but that has long since stopped; she started replying to me with very short and sharp replies and eventually stopped responding altogether.

We never had a falling out and she is the only witness to the argument, immediately after she validated me and told me that I was right to stick up for myself and the pwBPD was 'frustrating' and unreasonable.

That was 7 months ago - Our mutual friend remains on my Facebook list but she has stopped acknowledging any of my posts or activity and we haven't spoken in almost 4 months.

It's her birthday today and last night she posted on FB thanking pwBPD for showering her with love and how blessed she felt.

As this was a real triangulated friendship, I can remember pwBPD calling me only a few days before the argument to b*tch and complain about how our mutual friend wasn't pulling her weight in the home they shared and how it was about time she stood on her own two feet, as well as many other less than uncomplimentary remarks about her.

Now she has obviously latched on to her and as far as I know, they are still living together.

I'm so angry because I know the truth and I know that only a short time ago, pwBPD 'had had enough of her leaching off of her hard work' and now they are the very best of friends.

Meanwhile, I am left with no friends and no social life at all.

My sister has ensured that all our mutual friends have heard the version of events she prefers and they are too intimidated to maintain any kind of basic rlelationship with me. I am so lonely and I am devastated.

So I thought I would be the bigger person today and send our mutual friend a simple 'Happy Birthday x' text even though she has ignored me without reason for months.

I sent the message this morning but 7hrs on and I have had no reply.

I know she has 'seen' the message some time ago but she has not acknowledged it.

It feels as though these people who I was once so close to now want me to just disappear and go away quietly - They want to forget I'm still on this planet.

Her insensitive FB posts include pics of her and my sister and my god daughter whom I miss greatly, couple that with the gushing status updates and I feel like it's too much to bare.

I know that she only remains on my 'friends list' so my sister (who I blocked after abusive messages) can still see what I am doing.

I'm considering removing this girl also because it feels like she is torturing me from the other end of a smart phone, it's like she is doing it intentionally although the last time I saw her(7 months ago), there was no animosity, if anything she agreed that pwBPD was being completely unreasonable and out of line.

If I remove her from my facebook, do I look like a pathetic child trying to lash out?

I don't know what to do, I need some sort of closure on this so I can move on with my life.