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Title: I'm ready Post by: FigureIt on July 28, 2014, 08:20:32 PM I emailed my attorney to start the process to end my co-homeownership with my current uBPDbf. My atty is on vaca till aug 4, so have to present as normal for at least a week.
He worst part of it is my bf is on vaca all week to and we are going nowhere. And he has no plans. Except when he knows there is a conflict. For ex. My aunt just passed away so I have to attend the funeral on wed. He tells me tonight we were gonna go see a mlb game on wed but can't go now cuz of the funeral. Trying to make me feel guilty. I am ready to be done and alone! I don't want any man for a long long long time! Title: Re: I'm ready Post by: willtimeheal on July 28, 2014, 09:02:22 PM I hear you. I am ready to close this BPD book as well. I am tired of the flip flop and the push pull. I realized today that I am tired. Very tired. She is very good at twisting and turning situations to fit her scenarios. I listened to her today tell me how I constantly bring up the past and she is tired of it. Then I realized that the only time I bring up the past is when she initially does and I have to.defend myself from her accusations. So I hear you and I support you. And I wish you strength through your process. You will do great. Hang in there.
Title: Re: I'm ready Post by: FigureIt on July 30, 2014, 10:28:13 PM Thank you for the support!
I have gotten the push pull full boat this week so far. When he is home he sits and rocks in his recliner, all day. I can't just sit there. So I play with the dogs. I went to aerobics at 9:30am and he tells me after he was gonna take me to breakfast but I had plans. I said we could've gone at 10:30 he responds with "oh as long as it is based on your schedule and you can fit me in." He had no other plans what is the bit deal eating at 10:30, oh right it's giving in to me. It's all BS! Then he goes and list all he positives & negatives, oh and mine too. All to decide if we should stay together. So after he's done he wants to discuss it with me. I told him I didn't need him listing my flaws and telling me what he thinks I need to fix. Now f'him! So he tells me he has decided and is going to my aunt wake himself then going out & he leaves. I'm like "YES!" Bu then 5min later he's back cuz supposably he doesn't know address or how to get to funeral home. Then wants to talk more and all he ants is me to sit on his lap and console him... .AHHHHHH! Now today he's been out drinking since 2pm and it's 11:30pm and not back. He wouldn't give me a return time or say if he would be late. I'm done! I can't wait for my atty to get back from his vacation so I can move forward and be happy and no longer live in crazy town! |