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Wondering about any successes with specific healing modalities, particularly unorthodox ones, that anyone may have used. 

I have explored a couple of things, along with standard talk therapy.   Has anyone experienced "energy work", past-life regression, or

anything similar?

Hi there.  I had a friend (had to end the friendship back in July for various reasons) who is quite talented in doing astral charts, guided meditation, reiki, chakra work and other things like tarot.  he would help me with guided meditation and chakra work combined and he once did a very detailed astral chart on me.  I also have met with a shaman (actually a woman) who looked at past lives,    and other types of things.  I found them helpful at the time.

Looking back, and I am not saying I would not seek those things again, I realized that everything spiritual is connected no matter the modality.  I was raised catholic and my mother was, at one point, very involved in the charismatic movement back in the 80's.  Through her I was 'prayed over' (and not always in a good way thank you uBPD mom!) and received certain prophecy I guess you would call it.  Later on in my late 20's early 30's I was involved in the Pentecostal church where they also prayed over people.  I got lot of messages there too.  Then with the words I received from my friend and my Shaman, I realized all of them were consistent.  The words I got from the catholic church matched or complemented the ones from the pentecostal church and so on.  That realization has confirmed that everything is connected on a spiritual level and no one way is the right way.  So that was a huge benefit as I had been stifling my spiritual development.

As for practical help from the guided meditation, reiki, and understanding my past life experiences, yes, it did help in terms of relaxing and helping me to understand certain parts of me and understanding my purpose for being.  The astral chart (well everything really) was eerily accurate and while I do not focus on it much it did give me insight into certain patterns of behavior and recurring themes.

I can't say that I got *more* benefit from these modalities than with talk therapy and my own journaling though.  Everything I have tried has led to understanding.  The best thing for me though is the meditation, mindfulness and relaxation.  When I am tense and out of balance, there is little to no insight and I just stay on the same dang hamster wheel going round and round.  I am not religious, but I do consider myself spiritual even though i have not actively studied any of the things I mentioned here.  I have my own way of meditating that works for me.

Okay, I am not sure if that answers your question?   :)

Hi Harri, yes it does answer the question :)    I also believe and somehow "know" that everything is connected.  There is much evidence, in my opinion, for this.  Like you, I am not religious, consider myself spiritual, was raised Catholic (Catholic BPD mother with Baptist father, whom she overwhelmed).   

My left brain could easily go atheist, or at least agnostic.   Professionally, I deal with behavior, and it would not be a huge leap for me to conclude BPD/narcissism is normal, and nature's way to ensure survival of the species.  Evolutionarily, there must be all types in order that humans survive in many many environments, physical and social.  I could conclude I drew the short straw in getting the mother I have, and I need to just get over it!

But I can't go with my left brain on this.  I experienced one energy work session (two people helping me at the same time), about 10 years ago that left me feeling fantastic for months.  Lots of mother-implanted bad stuff came out and was disposed of.  That was at a retreat in another state, and I have not been able to find anything like that again.   I've also tried past life regression on my own, but fell asleep, multiple times  :)    I met the author of Many Lives Many Masters (about 15 years ago) and have no doubt what he writes actually happened. 

I am not getting as much out of regular talk therapy as I'd like regarding the anxiety... .just don't think it does much good to keep going over it all at this point in my life. 

Am feeling a need to go outside the box again!

I have to admit I am a bit relieved... .I was torn about sharing that stuff.   :)  But then I thought if people think I am crazy because of *that* ... .well, just stick around!   

I hope you can find a similar retreat that will help.  I can't say that I have had such long lasting results from any one session with any of those things like you experienced.  Rather, it is more of a change in my mindset. 

I laughed when you said you fell asleep during the regression.  :)  I can't do 'traditional' meditation because I too fall asleep.  I am having physical problems now that severely limit my ability to walk, but when I was able I would do walking meditation.  What I do now is more of a sitting/slouching/ mindfulness thing... .hey, it helps me to relax and feel reenergized and balanced so it works for me.

I also hear you on the talk therapy.  I stopped going when I kept sitting there saying 'okay, i get it... .it was bad.  So what do I *do* with that info?'    I can usually do introspection on my own.  I've got awareness... .it is implementing change that sometimes eludes me.   

I know a couple of people in the mid west who do excellent work with guided meditation (which can be done via phone).  If you want info, I can give you a link to a website that will give access.  Send me a PM if you want the info. (and no, I live no where near them!  Haha!   :) )

Glad you shared!  Hope others do too.  As my BPD mother is 92 and I am 61, I've had plenty of experience just trying to get through.  I am SO fatigued from her specter hanging over my psyche... .would like to vanquish it permanently.   I don't think her death (not imminent by any stretch) is the answer.  Or mine, for that matter.   We might have to work it out in another life... .noo!

Sorry you are having walking trouble.  I have found physical movement helpful, and music. 

Will PM you!