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Title: I know one day she will paint me white again. Post by: Gmoney on September 04, 2014, 08:40:37 AM Let me tell you the pain you had in store for you if you married her. My uBPDxw had 3 affiars that I know about. We have 3 kids together so I still have to see her/ maintain some contact. She replaced me 30 days after she told me she wanted a divorce. She is still with that guy. We were officially divorced yesterday. I have a feeling she will be engaged by this valentines day. We were together for 15 yrs married 12. I only heard of BPD 3 months ago.
She only filed for divorce once she found her replacement. I hated him at first for all the reasons you stated above. But know he saved me. My T says when she paints him black he will be calling me to find out what the hell just happened to him. I thought about telling about her and BPD. But that wouldn't do any good. I saw some of there texts while my ex and I were still living together. In short month I read how much they were in love and perfect for each other blah blah blah... .Well my friend you are going to be in a world of hurt one day soon. I am a stronger person today. I know about boundries today. I will teach my kids about them as well and I will be a strong stable parent that will viladate their feelings Am I over my ex? No. I still fantasie about sex with her. When I am having sex with my current GF I sometimes think of my ex. Well I think about her during sex more than I want to admit. The sex wasn't the best I ever had. Bit my Ed's body is killer and while I was sitting in my car yesterday when I had to see her I got aroused and had to hide that from her so she would not feel impowered by it. Really the last hurdle I have to giving her up completely is to loose the sexual attraction i have for her. She has nothing to offer me. I have nothing left to offer her. She still holds on. Before the convesation ended uraterday she asked "why do I hate her?" Testing the waters. I know one day she will paint me white again. We talked about always being friends with benefits during the beginning of the divorce process. But I know that's not healthy. I know I still want her in bed. But that's a door I can not ever open for my own health and well being. Title: Re: I know one day she will paint me white again. Post by: Lucky Jim on September 04, 2014, 02:51:33 PM Hey Gmoney, Maybe that will happen someday, but don't hold your breath! Seriously, it's time to move on. Don't even consider a "friends w/benefits" arrangement -- that's for friends, not ex-spouses. It's hard, I know, but you will learn and grow from the experience. Hang in there, LuckyJim
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